Tonight I dropped the boys off at Awanas and then went to the gym. I dropped Delaney off at the childcare at the gym and went to my first class - Turbo Kick which starts at 6:30. It was a great class, like usual! Got a really good sweat on.
After Turbo Kick, I stayed for Zumba. The regular instructor wasn't there, but another instructor was subbing. We got started, and I had to run down to childcare at almost 8:00 because childcare closes at 8:00. I brought Delaney upstairs to sit outside the class while I finished. I was only able to stay until 8:20 because I had to go pick the boys up from Awanas at 8:30.
Delaney was really cute. She saw me doing my Zumba and she started giggling with the other girls that had come up from childcare. I think Delaney was the youngest one there, but I think she was almost the leader of the pack by doing the giggling and trying to mimic the Zumba moves. At one point, all 4 of the girls that were there came inside the door and they were all sitting there watching and trying to mimic the moves. The instructor was smiling at them, but I kind of sensed that she was a little bit worried that they might get in the way of either her or the people in the class. When we finished the next song, I went and talked with Delaney and I told her that she could dance and play around, but I wanted her to stay where I could see her and not to go past the doorway into the studio. She did not come back into the studio, but she did disappear for a minute here and there. I was a little worried that she might go into one of the rooms with the cardio equipment, but it seems like she was just going for a drink of water. She actually did really well while she was up there for the 20 minutes. I wouldn't want to make her stay for a full hour, but the 20 minutes was fine.
We had to leave and on our way down, we went by the childcare room and Delaney saw a picture that someone had colored, and she suddenly remembered that she had three pictures that she colored. She started freaking out and wailing that she wanted to get her pictures. I told her that we would try to get them tomorrow because they were closed. She was screaming at the top of her lungs. She was really upset, but they were closed and there really was nothing we could do about it. She tried to go back towards the childcare room, and I told her goodbye and started walking towards the exit. She started coming with me, but she screamed and cried quite loudly.
I got her buckled in her seat as she continued to sob and sob. She told me that the pictures she had were special pictures. I asked her about them, and she continued to sob. I told her that we could try to call in the morning. More sobbing. Then she started in with, "I hate this world. I hate this world." That turned into, "It's all my fault. I'm a dumb dumb." Again, this was repeated over and over.
I tried to explain to her that she was not a dumb dumb, and that she was just excited to be able to come upstairs with me, to watch me do Zumba, but that didn't seem to help her much. We got to the church to pick the boys up, and she cried in there. (I also found out that Zane smacked an older boy. Apparently the boy kicked Zane in the ankle, and Zane seems to think that he kicked him on purpose, but when I asked him what he could have done differently, and we talked about how he could have told an adult, he told me he did tell an adult what happened. Then I asked him if he told the before or after he smacked the other boy, and he admitted he told after he smacked him...sigh).
We went home and Delaney continued to cry. It's been about 15 minutes now, but she's still upset. I had the kids get their pajamas on, and Delaney brought hers to me for help, although I had to threaten her with no snack if she didn't hurry and get the pajamas. Then there was drama about getting the clothes off and the pajamas on. Once I got her pajamas on, I just grabbed her and gave her a big hug. She hugged me right back and even gave me a kiss. After that, the drama was over.
Girls.
